What’s Meant to Be…

…it will, shall be, no matter the length

of time passing between you and

me. Stop dragging your feet, do not

fear — touch, reach out– I promise —

I am here; I bear no ill will, am holding

no grudge. The past is dead, finished, gone —

done. Years down the drain, keep calm — its

time to move on, and cast all anxiety aside. Pick

up the phone and call, what must you lose! We

already lost so much time. But descandsar

rest — I promise as we reunite, we’ll get by — for

what’s meant to be is..shall..will be…for what’s

meant to be is you — you and me.

  • Julia St. Clair, ©2017

    *Image from #StayQuotable via Google Image search

Always Have Hope

“Where there is life, there is hope.”

  • Stephen Hawking

Life is like a wheel — we get praised, we get torn. Opportunities arise, existing or possible ventures fail. People are born, and people die — but not just people — also ideas, relationships, cycles, etc. No one is blessed more than the other, and no one is damned or cursed — this is life, and everyone has to deal with it.

I’m a positive person — I always look on the bright side of things, and try my best not to complain. I never used to be like this, my former motto being “expect the best, but prepare for the worse,” and never being appreciate or thankful for the opportunities and blessings that came my way. Since becoming more spiritual about a year ago and using the law of attraction during these past few months, that view shifted, and all for the good. However, having a positive outlook on things doesn’t shield anyone from the bad times. Its like taking the subway in Manhattan if you live or work there — we all go through it, whether its liked or not. Therefore, being positive doesn’t shield us when fortune’s wheel takes us low; but it does change the outcome.

I’ve been attempting to manifest three things, and I won’t reveal two out of the three on here since they’re highly sensitive and personal. But the one I do talk about a lot is my career one — to begin working in a writing position and/or/eventually in the television, film, and/or publishing industries in Manhattan full-time. Things are coming to fruition — I had an official interview the other day, and two informationals. While I’m both happy and grateful, I learned a lot during the informationals that has me thinking about my priorities. Despite being part-time, my job is very flexible. I work in a wonderful environment with great people and an easy commute. I never realized how blessed I am until recently, and as ready as I am to make a shift, I’m finally realizing how much I have to be grateful for right now.

It has me calm in the midst of a setback with Manifestation #1, which I can’t reveal, but will say things were in fruition; not in the process of, they were going, in fact moving sooner than I expected. And then yesterday, during a really good day, I discover that, “kaboom! — there goes the dynamite!.” Its a two part process, and the two parts were in sync; one is kaput, the other in limbo. While still heartbroken, I can remain optimistic and hopeful, trusting in God’s plan that things happen for a reason, and something better is coming. Yet my family does not. My family looks at the negative in every point and event in life. They view us as predestined as cursed, blaming karma for our misfortune. Yet my family are blinded to the fact that we are good people who did nothing to deserve it; it would truly be karma if we did something wrong. Therefore, they view me as an outcast for being in a positive state of mind, and I can’t blame them; I refuse to knock myself down, and know I am in the right. However, most people in our world shares my family’s attitude of when things go wrong — we’re trapped! we’re predestined! we’re cursed! there is no hope. there is no god. Because they keep themselves in this mind frame, they close themselves off from all the blessings that are waiting to happen. I tried to help them see the light many a times, but its no use; I’m not giving up on myself, but I’m distancing myself from negativity. Its not that God doesn’t exist; He does — God is real, and God only helps those who helps themselves.

Number 3 is a different story altogether — I felt it coming, but couldn’t let go. Now I let go — and God can do with it whatever he wants. I won’t be heartbroken if it doesn’t happen anymore, and am trusting solely and firming in God. Que sara, sara — whatever will be, will be. There is a time and there is a season for every purpose in heaven. Perhaps the time and purpose is not now, but shall be later on. Perhaps now — perhaps never. Perhaps its another pointer I used to hate considering. Either way, I let go, and I trust God and the universe to do with it what they will. Everything works out in the long run — even if it takes awhile for us to see. As long as we have hope and are with God, then nothing or no one can come against us, no matter how good or bad a situation is or may become.

Old Love Through New, Open Shores

When it comes to you, my love, my heart is like iron, my

mind that of a conquistador; Just as Columbus dashed

across the shores of a land strange and foreign to his

plans, like Cortes stampeded across the Yucatan, conquering

and slaughtering the first world at hand, as though I were

Pizarro, who marched further south, another empire

capturing on, so I long to sail away to new lost shores, see

your face, complete the Reconquista in my heart, and hold

you safely in my arms. The years no doubt changed me, altering

my face, my body, my hair, myself; perhaps you, my love, transformed

as well, yet the difference it makes is none, for I know in my heart, the

explorer’s curse, what is good and true — I’d sail through

the heavens, climb up mountains, swim the seas and ocean floor, dive

head first into the molten lava and bathe in lake of fires whether they

are on earth or through l’inferno e purgatorio, just to see your face

again, if only to hear your voice. You — the Paris to my Helen, the

Fernando to my Isabel. Tanto monta, monta tanto — together we are

the same, only separated by past pain. Through all trials and festivals,

I find you in a different place. And thus by welcoming you back, through

just one simple spark, the old world forms with new, we return to one

another a third time, this time built to last, for the first time in forever, I

finally am at peace, this ship will land — my

Odyssey of aggeta is ended.

Wednesday, June 14th

He conquers who endures. - Persius

This was actually the quote of the day (QOTD) two days ago on BrainyQuote, but I decided to make it today’s on here. I decided to get less personal online and only tell stories in relation to a post/point, but very modestly, but will say I’m going through a lot right now. Its change, all good, but still change. However, I will not give up and, as Dory says, “just keep swimming,” for I know in my heart that everything will work out in the end. Have a great day! 🙂

Una vita alla traccia

Una vita alla traccia — a life

to trace, born and bred of this

the human race, and for all to see, to

hear, to grin, to bear, to rise high and

fall so low, there are tales to be told

of those who kept the most precious

gift — they never lost hope.