Reflections, Vol. 1

A brief list of reflections I’ve had/am having throughout the course of the year so far.

  • We constantly blame people for us being the way we are, but no one forced us to be this way. True, we as humans are influenced, but we have a choice. Unless its a difficult circumstance, such as a gun being held to the head, we are solely at fault for being the way we are — whether we like it or not.
  • Its psychologically proven that its easier for humans to adjust easier to more stimulation than less. Yet I can adjust to the quiet beach-country of Rhode Island just as easily as roaming the Manhattan streets. Yet if I had to chose where I’d rather be year round, the city would be my choice.
  • I was driving through the Putnam/Duchess/northern Fairfield county borders, and losing my patience with my unfamiliarity driving throughout the area. Its beautiful viewing the lakes as a passenger, but a bitch if you’re a driver from the city with the locals speeding up out of nowhere, yet always having the right away over you God forbid something goes wrong. And when your best friend does a *reverse Arminius you feel like the only urban girl upstate, all alone.

    “This is why I like the city better!” I yell in frustration. A mixture of confusion, miscommunication, and a bad case of PMS and the tension is over. Yet just by me blabbing that, everything makes sense; it all comes out. Upstate is pretty, beautiful even — but its just not for me. I don’t belong here; I’m meant for downtown.

  • Yet I don’t feel this distain towards all of upstate. I love New Paltz and Woodstock far better than Fishkill and Brewster. I haven’t yet driven in Woodstock, but I have in New Paltz; I find it much easier to navigate, and such a joy being so close to the mountains, historical sh*t, and walking onto the main road, seeing businesses named after Grateful Dead songs. I’d never live in Putnam/Duchess/Fairfield, even though there’s a kickass mall and not one, but two Chick-Fil-A’s, but I would consider Ulster one day, after I accomplish all of my goals. If only they had a train station leading south to my beloved citta…
  • When things go wrong with anyone, whether they be a friend, family member, partner, co-worker, etc., its hard getting an unbiased opinion with everyone taking your side. Even when we’re right, we’re so focused on getting out our part of the story as to “not look like a fool” that we overdramatize details and try to ruin the other person’s reputation. True, we’re in the moment and don’t see this as such, but we notice years later during one of our deep meditations.

    What was I thinking? They were bad, but not that bad! They weren’t bad at all, but I made them a whole lot worse!

    You reflect, thinking and feeling the emotions bottled up rise above the surface all at once. Should I reach out? Should I call? Perhaps I better ignore it; maybe they’re reach out to me. It’s good to have faith, great even, but God only helps those who help themselves. Don’t sit there on your ass doing nothing; do something. Unless divine action has yet to speak through, don’t waste time waiting; depending on our beliefs, we only have one life to live. Best to live it the way we want and stop settling for everything in life.

  • We worry so much about impressing other people, its a shame we don’t pay attention to impressing ourselves. One step at a time, one day closer; once you learn to let of fear, then you truly start living life for you and who, what, and where you truly love.
  • I’ve been practicing Law of Attraction for over three months now, and see two of my three main manifestations taking form; one is fully coming to fruition, the other is halfway there. And the last? Non so — I do not know. I know in my heart that it will happen one day, but why can’t one day be now? This is something I hoped and prayed for for years; I thought all hope was lost, and gave up for awhile before I learned about LoA and manifesting. Since then, I feel myself gaining more confidence and trusting in God and the universe, but I can’t fully “let go.” I can detatch from the situation at work or when I’m out, but it’s always the first thing on my mind when I wake up and the last as I go to bed.

    Am I doing something wrong? I’m visualizing, meditating, scripting, everything; everything but taking action.

    Take action — something I expected to do on the receiving end, not giving. Take action — a message I’ve been receiving, but am struggling to accept; those who know me tell me to wait, while the worker in the store or the lady in the church say “no.” They don’t know who I am, my story, what I want/am in the process of, but they can see I need to act on it. I’m tired sitting around doing nothing — its time to take action. If only divine action would fully call… every time I get close, I back out. Its a habit I need to break myself of; that habit starts right now.

    To be continued…

    *reverse Arminius is a term I derived as someone who fully engulfs themselves in and adopts the attitudes and behaviors of their new surroundings. An example is someone who’s originally from a rural area in the South moving to Manhattan and has lost their Southern accent and mannerisms completely.

 

Thought for the Day

Be both willing and receptive to unexpected blessings. Cheer up, there’s good fortune smiling down upon you!
– JST.C, 8/9/2017, 12:20PM EST

 

What’s Meant to Be…

…it will, shall be, no matter the length

of time passing between you and

me. Stop dragging your feet, do not

fear — touch, reach out– I promise —

I am here; I bear no ill will, am holding

no grudge. The past is dead, finished, gone —

done. Years down the drain, keep calm — its

time to move on, and cast all anxiety aside. Pick

up the phone and call, what must you lose! We

already lost so much time. But descandsar

rest — I promise as we reunite, we’ll get by — for

what’s meant to be is..shall..will be…for what’s

meant to be is you — you and me.

  • Julia St. Clair, ©2017

    *Image from #StayQuotable via Google Image search

Thought for the Day

Be grateful and appreciate the present and being in the now.

  • JST.C, 7/26/2017, 3:24PM EST

Always Have Hope

“Where there is life, there is hope.”

  • Stephen Hawking

Life is like a wheel — we get praised, we get torn. Opportunities arise, existing or possible ventures fail. People are born, and people die — but not just people — also ideas, relationships, cycles, etc. No one is blessed more than the other, and no one is damned or cursed — this is life, and everyone has to deal with it.

I’m a positive person — I always look on the bright side of things, and try my best not to complain. I never used to be like this, my former motto being “expect the best, but prepare for the worse,” and never being appreciate or thankful for the opportunities and blessings that came my way. Since becoming more spiritual about a year ago and using the law of attraction during these past few months, that view shifted, and all for the good. However, having a positive outlook on things doesn’t shield anyone from the bad times. Its like taking the subway in Manhattan if you live or work there — we all go through it, whether its liked or not. Therefore, being positive doesn’t shield us when fortune’s wheel takes us low; but it does change the outcome.

I’ve been attempting to manifest three things, and I won’t reveal two out of the three on here since they’re highly sensitive and personal. But the one I do talk about a lot is my career one — to begin working in a writing position and/or/eventually in the television, film, and/or publishing industries in Manhattan full-time. Things are coming to fruition — I had an official interview the other day, and two informationals. While I’m both happy and grateful, I learned a lot during the informationals that has me thinking about my priorities. Despite being part-time, my job is very flexible. I work in a wonderful environment with great people and an easy commute. I never realized how blessed I am until recently, and as ready as I am to make a shift, I’m finally realizing how much I have to be grateful for right now.

It has me calm in the midst of a setback with Manifestation #1, which I can’t reveal, but will say things were in fruition; not in the process of, they were going, in fact moving sooner than I expected. And then yesterday, during a really good day, I discover that, “kaboom! — there goes the dynamite!.” Its a two part process, and the two parts were in sync; one is kaput, the other in limbo. While still heartbroken, I can remain optimistic and hopeful, trusting in God’s plan that things happen for a reason, and something better is coming. Yet my family does not. My family looks at the negative in every point and event in life. They view us as predestined as cursed, blaming karma for our misfortune. Yet my family are blinded to the fact that we are good people who did nothing to deserve it; it would truly be karma if we did something wrong. Therefore, they view me as an outcast for being in a positive state of mind, and I can’t blame them; I refuse to knock myself down, and know I am in the right. However, most people in our world shares my family’s attitude of when things go wrong — we’re trapped! we’re predestined! we’re cursed! there is no hope. there is no god. Because they keep themselves in this mind frame, they close themselves off from all the blessings that are waiting to happen. I tried to help them see the light many a times, but its no use; I’m not giving up on myself, but I’m distancing myself from negativity. Its not that God doesn’t exist; He does — God is real, and God only helps those who helps themselves.

Number 3 is a different story altogether — I felt it coming, but couldn’t let go. Now I let go — and God can do with it whatever he wants. I won’t be heartbroken if it doesn’t happen anymore, and am trusting solely and firming in God. Que sara, sara — whatever will be, will be. There is a time and there is a season for every purpose in heaven. Perhaps the time and purpose is not now, but shall be later on. Perhaps now — perhaps never. Perhaps its another pointer I used to hate considering. Either way, I let go, and I trust God and the universe to do with it what they will. Everything works out in the long run — even if it takes awhile for us to see. As long as we have hope and are with God, then nothing or no one can come against us, no matter how good or bad a situation is or may become.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Nothing great in the world has ever been accomplished without passion. - Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel